rotting blog.

'round time i updated this thing.
been ages since i last wrote.
around 1.5 months i think.

turned 15, 5 days after the last post on November 10. Yep, my birthday's on November 15. Happy birthday to me. Kitchong's birthday is November 15 too. Happy Birthday to Kitchong.

Tzung Ern you phailed.

Anyway, my friends wished me happy birthday, I was touched to the point that i wrote a note to everyone for wishing me happy birthday.

Thanks people.

Did virtually nothing these holidays. 19 November was POP, screwed up at the hand-down-of-the-posts thingy. Shit.

Quintus gave us presents and notes. Thanks Quintus.

Hang Siang and Zhi Wei gave us notes too. Thanks Hang Siang and Zhi Wei.

After that nothing much happened. Got english project, haven't start.
Got exchange with SAS. tiring. go back home lie on bed do nothing.

play pokemon mystery dungeon red. finished the game. Now recruit Kyogre.

i guess this blog ain't so rotten no more.

first up!


CHINESE O-LEVELS OVER!

yeah!



15/1/2010 - results!


hmm, what's over is over, so i shan't bother. shan't!


TLL outing.

Bodyworks.

smelly):


...


watching DN.

i'm fed up already!

chinese o-level papers are killing me.

i'm feeling fed up with the crazy chinese intensive thingy that the CHS chinese department came up with since i-don't-know-when.

they make us sit through 2 hours of lectures on compos and paper2s, and in the auditorium with those damn small tables which drop your stuffs the moment you're not careful. good thing they made normal chinese people go to the LT, where the tables are more prone to giving way.

some of us really appreciate the effort. even though it's damn boring, i try to listen. i've found out, not too long ago, that jotting down notes helps to bring down the ZZ monster. doodling helps too, but i'm not about to scrawl any crap all over my chinese notes.

still, i somehow can't bring myself to do the chinese papers they gave out. i guess i lack the discipline, because i get bored after 20 minutes of FOCUS and start playing pokemon. and during the chinese intensive thingy itself, i find myself not focusing on what the teacher is saying, but instead focusing on trying not to fall asleep. being the good boy i am, i always put up valiant efforts not to fall asleep during class. i always teeter on the brink of falling asleep, but i manage to force my eyes open again...somehow. although i'm proud to say that these efforts have never found me dead to the world during class, i have to admit that once the ZZ monster attacks, i can never get anything else from lessons.

anyways, i have to go for dinner now. THEN i've gotta chiong chinese homework. no slacking. NO MORE.


i saw shawn tan in the mirror on Monday. i was putting down my stuff, and i looked into the mirror on a whim.

in a flash.

shawn tan replaced my image and instantaneously vanished.

but not before i saw him.

it left me disturbed. freaked out.

i don't want to be a shawn tan.

all right. time to eat. eat eat!

byebye!

hey everyone!

script check started some time ago.& it ended hours ago.
for those itching to know my results, sorry for the delay. was busy reading twilight&eclipse - stephenie meyer.

anyway. here's a quick summary of my results.

english lang.

letter:21/30.
essay - fear. 23/30.

paper 2.
compre - 16.5
summary - 14.5
total - 31/50

ULTIMATUM - 69%

owch.


chinese lang.

paper1.

letter: 11/20.
compo: 31/50.
total: 42/70.

paper2.
total: 55/70.
ULTIMATUM: 69%.

owch.

addmaths.

paper1 - 38/40.
paper2 part1: 12/15.
paper2 part 2: 27/45.

ULTIMATUM: 78%. woohoo!

emaths.

paper1: 26/40.
paper 2: 48/60.

ULTIMATUM: 72.5 roundup=73%.

owch.

bio.
mcq:13/20.
answer booklet A: 0/25.
answer booklet B: 18/31.
section C: 15.5/24.

ULTIMATUM: 46.5 roundup=47%

expected.

chem.
mcq:16/20.
section b: 40.5/50
section c: 20/30

ULTIMATUM: 76.5 roundup=77% woohoo!

geog.
qn1: 13/25.
qn2:15/25.

ULTIMATUM: 28/50 = 56%

at least i passed!

ss.
source-based: 12/13.
essay: 7/12.

ULTIMATUM: 19/25 = 76% woohoo!

lit.
mockingbird: 21/25
unseen (poem) : 18/25

ULTIMATUM: 39/50 = 78% woohoo!

combined humans: (76+78)/2= 77% woohoo!


so my L1R5...

1LANG.

english=69% B3

1HUMANS.

combined=77% A1

1SCIENCE.

chem=77% A1

others of my choice.

chinese=69%B3

emaths=73% A2

addmaths= 78% A1

total: 11.



okay lar, not so bad.

but there goes my laptop...

daddy promised me a new laptop for 4A1s.

argh!


band is fun!
triumphant fanfare sectionals=got too high.

so our dear band director send our dear xian zhe down to see what trumpet section doing (think because he heard me, sing too loud liao bah).

anyways. this post super long liao, i wanna stop here.

bye!

enjoy post-eoy life!

study for chinese 0-level.

woohoo.


bye!

isn't it a nice day today?

yet another day has passed.
really. time flies. regardless of whether you have fun or not.
arh. whatever.
anyways, i think i had a pretty eventful day today.
first period english. didn't do anything. practically.
then after that, went for geog. watched a movie on victoria falls and its rapids. so cool.& people tried to paddle through the big ones.
and then. bio was abit more interesting. went through spa. got 19/25, which is high for me considering that i used to fail. but lok lam just had to get 23/25. damn you lok lam. i hate your guts. (doesn't mean i hate you though.) and he gave out this holiday practice worksheet. it was only then that i realised i'd forgotten how to define translocation. gotta look that up.

so our dear bio teacher seemed to have realised that i'm the one who left the whole booklet A out. just thinking about it is agonising. it hurts my heart. ouch.
yup. anyway. he confirmed that i was the idiot who left the entire section out. alvin was laughing, so i couldn't help smiling as i said yarh. lok lam was...well, lok lam was unresponsive. he asked me if it was because i didn't know how to do it. &i was like, hello, are you fcking insulting my intelligence? then what the fcking fck did i fcking study one whole fcking day for? (sorry. a bit fcked up here. dammit, i really have to kick this habit.) nonono. because i didn't see it. so i painstakingly explained to him, but succinctly, how it happened. he didn't look just interested, maybe he even looked taken aback (astonished!) alvin was laughing, so lok lam said matter-of-fact-ly, true what. he left one whole section out.

oh please! i left it out! not that i don't know how to do, but i completely forgot that there would be 1, 2 and 3 before 4! dammit! maybe because i did too much cramming.

DAMMIT, I DON'T WANT TO BE A SHAWN TAN!

DON'T TREAT ME LIKE A SHAWN TAN!

&in fact,

WHY ARE YOU TREATING ME LIKE A SHAWN TAN?
why are you asking me if i left out 3 consequential questions because i don't know how to do them? do i fcking look like a fcking fcktard to you? hey, i might have failed my bio last last term. but if you really look closely, even if i don't know how to do these questions, i was still man enough to try tackling it before skipping to other questions to save time right? i mean fill in the easy parts and scribble some crap on the ones i totally don't know.

awright. maybe i was a bit too unreasonable. its really retarded of me to leave one whole section out and not realise it until the end of the paper.

anyway, shawn tan is an interesting topic by himself. i'll see what i can write about him. his mum is so scary, it's almost hilarious.

i really can't think of what else to put up. so bye.

my mum's philosophy of life is freaking me out. seriously.
sure, birds of the same feather flock together. people who score sly-high (sorry, sky-high) tend to congregate and spend time with each other. well, which is probably why we have segregation, which is bad.

but that still makes sense.

the part i refuse to believe.

that people make friends based on marks.

NONSENSE.

that will mean, no friendship.

no real friends.

really. my parents are trying to psycho me into thinking that. so i'd get better marks.

YOU WISH.
you can't get what we want by twisting my mind.

then would there be any true friends in the world?


and please.

even if this is what it means to be smart and live life the RIGHT way, i'd rather be stupid and live life the WRONG way.



damn disturbing.

PEACE
no more crap from your mouth, please.

i think i'm starting to become insane.
Brian Foo said EOYs have snapped his sanity string.
I think's mine's snapped too.

For some reason, I don't feel motivated to study. Although chinese o-levels are less than a month away.

For another, I've begun to sass my parents. I don't know how it happens. I was playing pokemon. i was pretty frustrated because of the kezillion zubats swooping around and the billions of krabbys creeping around seafoam islands. and i can't find lugia. so my mum came along, exclaimed to me what a messy person i am and told me off. she told me to file up all the waste papers (worksheets that were never done, fulscap papers which are inscribed with numbers, doodles and offensive portraits, etc, etc) in new files.

Pissed, I began to shoot my mouth off (ie.订嘴).

So, i managed to piss my mum off with (not surprisingly) ease.

but i ended up filing up all the shit anyway. waste my time. blearrh.

oh, and when the loose sheets flew about when the wind howled, i screamed fck you, do that again and i'll kill ya at the papers, but my mum didn't give me the wtf look like people usually do when you scream at inanimate objects for "hurting" you, giving you trouble, etc, etc. she just gave me the you-shouldn't-say-rude-words-and-behave-like-that-whatever-the-situation-is kind of look. I guess she's used to it already.

seriously, i don't fcking know what the fcking fck her fcking problem fcking is lar. when she sees something "messy", ie. papers kiapped in folders (at least i bother to), a stack of books higher than my knee (my legs are pretty short anyway), etc, etc, she tells me to file them up/keep them neatly. waste my time. waste anything from fifteen minutes to an entire evening.

i end up losing stuff because of that. like my ss notes (which i found the evening before ss eoys).

fortunately or unfortunately, that turned out to be the least of my problems.

right, we all know how badly i screwed up bio right? yah, it really is fcking retarded. more retarded than SOME PEOPLE can ever be.

for those who don't know what happened to me and my bio paper, kindly refer to the last post to see how fcked up it was.

anyway, when i was watching people play handball, i suddenly felt depressed. the sky looked bleak. my future seems bleak. black clouds again. so i told yi herng i might be depressed because of the sky. Look at the sky. It looks bleak.

then he told me to look at the bright side lar.

true. Although the sky looked bleak on my left, it seemed a pleasant day on my right.

freaky.

anyway, i told lok lam i was depressed.

wesley was a great source of comfort. thanks wesley.

lok lam told me, at least you're normal right. you can be depressed. i can't be depressed.

i was like. um. sure boh.

so. ll gave me a hint. he told me everytime he felt sad, he'd go emo.

then he'd find himself asking himself, "why am i sad?"

then he don't know what he's sad for. so he'd go happy again.

i think living life happy is way better living life sad. true! VERY true.


i admired how he gets back up again. his mood is like an exponential graph - always going up. mine is like a sine curve. i suppose. when i'm happy, i'd find myself thinking of something sad. then i'll *gloom* again. But when i'm sad, there's some source of comfort, either myself or a good friend. sometimes, telling yourself it's no good mulling over it, it's over already after all or why the fck should i fcking care? make this fcking problem get the fck out of my fcking life! i fcking wanna fcking live a fcking happy fcking life! or wallowing in self-pity helps for a while. Then there's always someone/something to laugh with/laugh at. like ll.

so, from this day onwards, i'll have to start learning from ll the key to becoming a forever-cannot-be-depressed kind of person.

so i'll (gladly!) call him --

leling师父！

so. yah. ive got to go now.
bye.

post-exam life.

exams over for one day now. phew.
today i brought my grandma to AMK polyclinic.
long queue):
my grandma got high systolic blood pressure (143mmHG, >140=high).
sad.

i'm playing pokemon gold now.
owned the elite four flat,
but saw RED in Mt. Silver and he owned me flat.
Lv81 Pikachu.
Lv73Espeon.
Lv_Blastoise.
Lv75Snorlax.
_______
_______

Argh.

My team:

Lv57Ampharos
Lv56Espeon
Lv56Dragonite
Lv55Pidgeot
Lv55Typlosion
Lv56Shiny Gyrados

ok bah, tmrw's gonna be a long day
cant wait for next chapter of bleach to come out

hiyori's legs kena chop off, then show ichigo after he win ulqorria.

naruto isn't really exciting any more

moon's eye plan. cheem.

madara uchiha smarter than me lor.

4th ninja war siah.

haiya. this people just wanna keep on fighting. peace, people. PEACE!

alright, shut up now.

bye.

Hey all.

i think everyone's feeling a whole lot better after the eoys. that is, everyone other than the pure art people, the pure music people, the pure physical education people, pure english literature people, the pure chinese literature people, the elective english literature people and the elective chinese literature people. Fortuneately or unfortuneately, I happen to fall under one of these categories.

everyone's running off from school to play LAN. nothing atypical. even shawn tan running off with them to play LAN despite the fact that his pure music paper is tomorrow is nothing atypical.

his mom smsed me a few hours ago asking me, with a distinctly assertive tone, which LAN branch he goes to.

somehow i don't feel motivated to answer.

it's none of my business anyway, so why should i care.

i nearly had a heart infarct (in-fck!) today near the end of the bio paper.

i realised that i left out ANSWER BOOKLET A when the invigilator gave the pens-down call.

i swore out loud. fortuneately or unfortunately, he didn't hear me.

that would mean 3 qns, 25 marks, and A1, even a pass, out of the window.

like spider-man's ring, bouncing on the street and rolling towards a sewer grating. no web to stop its movement. no nothing.

25 marks gone to nothing. no nothing.

i really felt like bursting into tears at that point of time. I screamed at random people and screamed fck! until i zao xia at the end of the paper. the invigilator was still there, and he gave me that wtf look.

and the worst thing was, lok lam said BEST when i mentioned it to him.

my friend. i wanted you to console me.

Like jasper, i was cold and hungry during the amaths paper. i skipped recess to revise binomial theorem together with kuan hoe. i didn't regret it much, but still, i could hear my stomach practically growling through the whole paper.


anyway, i felt really frustrated when i got home, 'cause i couldn't play kiss the rain properly. to me, when it's played nicely. despite the occasional slips and screw-ups, there seems to be a calming effect, and it's highly satisfying - the A-major chord at the end really sends that feeling of peace into your heart.

Yiruma is a great composer and a great pianist. really. if i can, it'll be bliss to play through Kiss The Rain with emotion and without mistakes. you'd feel the peace.

so i can't cure my heart with art, unlike illness with medicine. so i tried playing river flows in you. i played it smoothly but ended up feeling more tormented than ever (not saying that it's not a great piece though).

I have to study lit now. update when i have the time.

hcl people, all the way for o-level chinese. cheer up, we're all in this together!

bye.



Oh. and peiqi. sorry for being an ass.

this is bryan nicholas' nostril.

nice. i almost kena bang by bicycle.

this is my heart. nice right.

this is my table.

i'm depressed. save me.

2 days to exam and i still don't care.

I think I'm gonna pay dearly for my one week of fun.
As in, seriously. I thought I was stressed over the EOY, but I don't think so.
If you really look at it, it really makes sense.
My hairs are dropping.
When I think REALLY hard for one hour, two of my hairs fall out. Peiqi and Shi Ying knows that.
Even my dick hair is dropping.
Today, when I undressed to shower, five strands of straggly dick hair dropped off like that. Poing.

BUT.

I behaved like the exams were eons away this week.

I don't know why, but during this week, I had to hug Ri Xuan, Lok Lam and Yi Herng. So I was like, um, gay around Lok Lam.


By the way, I'm not gay. I'm bisexual.

One of these days I walked to the MRT station with LL. He kept pushing me away, changed his walking speed drastically in all ways to avoid me. Once, he tripped over a sewer grating when utilising his leg muscles to walk full speed.

I laughed and told him he was damn cute. (which was, in a way, true.)
He frowned and told me I was damn gay. (which was, in a way, true.)


oh, and besides that. I tried to study, but I somehow couldn't bring myself to.
This whole week consisted of spamming people. Really. Spamming people like Lok Lam. Peiqi. And other random people.

I sent 45 messages (and counting) this week. The first four days of the week, I think I sent a little less than 100. Assuming I sent 90 messages (that I deleted since it was making my phone lag so much), that would make 130 messages. (which is a lot, considering that I usually send little over 20-30 messages a week.) Looking back, it's kind of fun to spam people and read the responses (especially lok lam's). A great way to destress too. I was sick on Tuesday - Wednesday (ie, not feeling well). So I told Peiqi this:


Art is an instant arrested in eternity.



And -


To the world, you may be one person.


But to one person, you may be the world.


After a moment's thought, I quoted Lok Lam:


change of pronoun.

"But I guess I'm just one person in my own world after all."


So she LOL?'ed me, and I told her not to LOL? me when I'm sick.


Oh right. I know I was being stupid and annoying.


But I'll be even more stupid and annoying after exams.


It's wrong for me to post because I'm sick of mugging.



Bye.

happy children's day to all.



regards,
the-cutest-stalactite@romantic-stalactite.bs

you never know...

To the world, you may be one person.
But to one person, you may be the world.





P.S. I love you, Lok Lam.

bird shit on my head today.
yuck!
i'm so pissed.

i didn't do any homework today.

honestly, i don't see the point in trying to do homework when you can't even get yourself to get up and do it. Every time i try, i can't even lift up my hand to hold a pen, much less write with it.

i've been coughing and having running nose since two days ago. Not been feeling well since.

so today my mum got me to see a doctor. He gave me two sets of pills and bottled cough medicine, and they cost $34.

so i went home. quick lunch, quick shower. When I came out of the shower I had to dry my hair thoroughly. Then, as soon as my hair was dry, I went to slack on my bed and stare into space. i like creating patterns on the ceiling!

after some lying down I decided I had to get up or else suffer doing nothing the entire day. so i went ONLINE and reminded myself again.

TOMORROW.


Plane Geometry.

I think that i'm going to screw this up in eoy anyway. so to hell with it, and leave it there to rot. but i studied it anyway.

-congruence&similarity.
-geom properties of circles.
-midpoint thm.
-intercept thm.
-tangent-secant thm.

all these can go and die.


...for a while, before i got distracted again.

I was intrigued by daryl's newest note on facebook. Quoted from alvin's blog, which is in turn quoted from apple

so i read alvin's blog.

for 1hour, then i actually went to ace-learn (or whatever the hell it is) to see the tutorials for plane geometry. And then I remembered ---

STATISTICS
Another headache there.

I didn't bother to do it in the end anyway, i had to study plane geometry. And I don't plan on chionging it now.


I hate stats. Too many numbers.

-median.
-mode.
-mean.
-standard deviation.

all these can go and die.


So. Here it is ---



courtesy of elementsdatabase.com

Test.


I sought advice from Lok Lam. He told me read the textbook.

So I did. It worked! Now I have better understanding of the periodic table. Given that i was sleepy that lesson. Thanks lok lam. love you.




I've got stomachache now. I think I better turn in early.


Nitenites.

something happened to my heart.

Love is patient,
Love is kind.
It does not envy,
It does not boast,
It is not proud.
It is not rude,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects,
always trusts,
always hopes,
always perseveres.

---1 Corinthians 13:4-7

study lah!

sian lar, my chinese file spoil again ):
I just can't stand my neighbourhood.
I don't know why. They just give me hell.
Damn you neighbours. Blearrh.

found my chinese book!

under my table when I came to school!
No need to worry about it any more!




Bye!






Happy Hari Raya!

No more chinese book.

left it in the school toilet and realised it 11+ hrs later.
really can't believe myself.
I don't know what to do now...
study study study.
sian.

La Romanesca

It's a nice song, go try it out!

Exams coming up, so stressed!

Trying to learn how to spell glomerulus -

Glomerulus: 1.In the kidney, a tiny ball-shaped structure composed of capillary blood vessels actively involved in the filtration of the blood to form urine. The glomerulus is one of the key structures that make up the nephron, the functional unit of the kidney.

cheem):

Found my bio notes in school, cause for celebration!
(I realised I lost it on the saturday before school reopened for term 4)

Thanks 3-5 buds!

I've learnt how to spell glomerulus now.

g-l-o-m-e-r-u-l-u-s.

All topics going for full syllabus!
die liao!
especially geog, forgot everything about plate tectonics liao!
weather and climate! ('cause most of the time I was trying not to fall asleep!)

social studies, test next week! die!
chemistry, drawing of electronic structure and preparation of salt die liao!
english, ok bah, all along always ok one
lit, aiyah, cannot make it!
chinese, OLEVEL THIS YEAR!
bio, OMG! (or quintus one, ZOMGAWDBBQ!)
havent memorise all the crap yet!

i surrender.

homework time): bb.

Somewhat, somehow.

I should be studying now.
I should be studying chinese.
But how to when I can't motivate myself to finish that shitload of work?
I only get the push in memorising those nice big words for the essay.
How am I going to live my life like this...
I feel so down...




Tell me when you'll give me those balloons, so I can rise up again.





I'm done watching Boys Over Flowers.
And I found my bio file - cause for celebration!
Actually I dunno what to write.
So bye.

Encounters

The most unfortunate encounters are like fish bones.

The longer the encounter, the more the fishy smell sticks to you.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Encounters to be cautious about are like a flower blossom.

Because it brings exuberance during full bloom,

but gets discarded when wilted.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

The most beautiful encounters are like handkerchiefs.


They wipe away your

sweat when you're

tired, and


your

tears when you're

sad.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------



So true!

...


I really like this verse.




------------------------------------Boys over flowers, episode 22

I'm going now.


Bye.

happy birthday blogspot.

first

Hey everyone!
How's life?


Life is great!
Right?


What's a stalactite?

-a deposit, usually of calcium carbonate, shaped like an icicle, hanging from the roof of a cave or the like, and formed by the dripping of percolating calcareous water.

SO COOL, RIGHT?

don't ask me what percolating is.

i can try calcareous - maybe it means containing calcium.

calcium is good for your bones!

and for those who don't take/don't study/have not studied chemistry, calcium carbonate is CaCO3. It reacts with an acid to form a calcium salt, carbon dioxide{CO2} and water{H2O}. For instance, using hydrochloric acid{HCl}...

2HCl (aq) + CaCO3 (s) ---> CaCl2 (aq) + CO2 (g) + H2O (l)

CaCl2 is calcium chloride and is soluble in water.


So much for digressing...



So, on to introducing myself!

I'm an average student at Catholic High School with not-so-average grades!

所谓　“公教只有三种学生：
　　　　　　死读书、
　　　　　　　读死书、
　　　　　　　　读书死。”　　

To fellow cathigh students, doesn't matter if it's not in order right :p


Both my maths are going on well. Yay! That's a cause for celebration right?

Both my sciences suck. Awww...chem&bio...haiya...

My humanities suck too, but not as bad as my sciences though. hahah, but they still suck.

...darling, can i be honest with you?

...what?

...my sciences suck.

my english WILL survive, and hopefully my chinese too.

I'm taking O-Level chinese this year!

*GASP*

so by right I should be studying now.


But I don't feel like studying anyway.

No...not that I don't feel like studying, but I just can't bring myself to study.

Hate studying.

Especially when I got other things in mind...oh no...

what's wrong with me. haiya.

Ya la, call me a dipshit for sighing so much and being so depressed for nothing.


I'm from Cathigh band - CHSSB!

Estate Manager. Tiring job! Haiya.

Cannot slack. NO SLACKING.

看什么看？不爽吗？想打吗？本人做上了 estate manager又怎么样？

2nd Cornet player!

Sorry lah I not 1st! i not that pro mah!

All right I shall shut up now.



This post quite long liao, I think I should stop here.

纸短情长，就在此阁笔。希望大家再接再厉、用功读书，做个有用的人！

bye-bye everyone!

I like BOF*!






*BOF: Boys Over Flowers